A Challenge Commences

As you know, I have made my goals for the summer to:

  • Fill a wall with family pictures
  • Lose 30 lbs with  20 lbs gone by the end of summer
  • Read through the Bible looking for those fruits of the spirit to apply to my life.

Have I started on the wall yet?  Well I decided on 2 pictures.  Does that count?  This week I’m going to have my grand children here, so I’d like to get some candid pictures to frame and put up along with the old ones I already have.  I’m looking for quality as well as quantity as they say.  🙂

My new challenge is from my daughter.  She says if I lose 20 lbs by the time school starts she’ll buy me 5 new outfits!  Now that’s some incentive, because I’ve been looking at my clothes lately and they’re rather outdated and raggedy.  I’ve already lost 2.5 lbs this week!  Hey, I’m 1/10 of the way there.  It counts.  🙂

As for reading through the Bible, I’m following along with the Bible study at church, but I don’t think that really counts.  It wasn’t my intent when I made the goal to let church be my guide, so it wouldn’t be honest to say that counts.  Let’s just say I need to work on this goal.

But…let me show you what I have done.  I made this really snazzy bag for the Fourth of July!

One Snazzy Bag!

  Pretty neat right? One Snazzy Bag!

Now I’m 1/10 of the way through with my goal for last summer.  Ha! Ha!

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Ok, it’s been two weeks and I haven’t posted.  I’m a little off my game, but I have committed to this through the good, the bad and the ugly.  I told my husband last week that I lost weight.  Ok, it was .2 lbs, but hey, I figure it’s still going down.  He didn’t quite see it that way.  He said, “Take off your shorts, you’ll lose another .2 lbs.”  He may be right, but I’m still seeing this as part of the good.  I can zip my jeans without having to monitor the zipper all day, so that .2 lbs means something!  lol

Car and countertop?  check!  I’m doing well with this except when my husband puts his stuff on my side of the countertop or leaves his coffee cup and napkin on the car floor.  We got some talking to do.  So far, I’ve been just pushing his stuff back on his side and taking the trash out myself, but before I become Monster Wife, I better get a handle on it.

Now for the Bad.  I didn’t do my August act of kindness.  😦  I’m planning to change this by doing 2 in September, but I doesn’t change that I missed my August deadline.  I really do want to keep up with my goals and if I let them slip by, how can I say I’m committed.  Well, I AM committed and my report next week will show that.  I also haven’t done my New Testament study for the past month and I need to get back to that.  I miss it.  It’s funny how you can read the New Testament time and time again and it still speaks to you in a different way.  Lastly for the bad, I haven’t started the couch to 5k program yet.  I do walk my dog morning and night, but it’s definitely NOT a 5k.  I feel like I’ve just misstepped on these goals and will be back on track soon, but…

Now for the UGLY.  Still no painting.  Still no bags.  Still no closet work.  Still no excuses.  What more is there to say?  Not much.  Happy Goal Tending!

Wow!  I’m back from Boston and I didn’t gain a pound.  I didn’t lose a pound either, but hey I feel good about not gaining while on vacation.  The fact of the matter is, I didn’t gain any weight because my health conscious daughter walked my feet all over Boston.  From Cambridge, across the bridge, and all the way over to Fenway Park!  I have to say though, it was a beautiful walk and maybe that’s the best way to see Boston.  There’s beautiful architecture everywhere and some of the oldest buildings in the country.  I think Fenway is the oldest ballpark isn’t it?  Well, here are a few picture to prove you should take your own walk around Boston.  🙂

This is the beautiful MIT man sculpture. I’m standing there with my beautiful Texas man Bob.

Beautiful architecture surrounded by trees. Not uncommon in Boston

Bob and Dolly in Kenmore Park just blocks from Fenway. See the giant CITGO sign? You can see it anywhere you are in Boston.

 

 

I’ve been reading Matthew chapter 3 this week and it reminded me of those old movies where the gangsters go out and kill people and then race the next day to the church to repent, just to go out and do it again.  Maybe the Pharisees were the gangsters of their day.  Who knows?  It certainly seems similar anyway.

This month I’ve decided to do something nice for my principals (anonymously of course).  I was thinking a little care package with some lip balm, lotion, nice pens and some sticky notes.  Any other suggestions about what I should put in?  School starts next week for us and the kids come the following week.  I’m excited and am readying my make up and hair supplies.  Ha ha.

I sewed myself a dress this week and got my pattern all ready for my bags. My dress is purple and pink.  Not usually my colors, but I’m kind of excited about it.  I like to sew.  It’s creative and productive at the same time.

Goals in check and in process–we won’t talk any more about the closet until I get busy and start.  lol

Happy Day to all and Good luck with your goals!

 

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes

You know it’s time to reevaluate when your husband says, “Why are you eating that?  You know it’s not good for you.”  At least when my husband does because he has never gotten after me for what I eat.  I think he knows how serious I am about this and wants to help keep me on track. 

At the time I was eating a delicious fried pie that the local Menonites make and sell in our area.  This may seem like a small thing, but when you have a sugar addiction, one small mistake can take you back down the rabbit hole like Alice looking for just the right cookie to make you big again, small again, big again.  You get the idea.  It’s that yoyo diet cycle that keeps the weight loss companies in business and me in a constant turmoil of self love and self loathing–neither of which is good in too much measure.

Don’t get too upset at those who suggest you shouldn’t be eating something.  Most likely their motives are to help, not hurt.  Turn the negative into a positive for yourself and move forward.  Besides, he was right.  I didn’t have any business eating that.  I know my state of mind better than anyone and it very likely could’ve taken me back to square one.  So, Thanks Honey!  And, thanks to the next person who reminds me that I need to be more aware of what I put into my mouth.  Remember what Walt Disney said:  “All your dreams can come true if you have the courage to pursue them.”  So take courage my friends.  Pursue your dreams.  They’re out there waiting for you!

A Rebel in Disguise

I’ve been thinking a lot about lifestyle lately.  I’ve decided I’m a rebel.  Not in the goth, wear black lipstick, pierce yourself kind of rebel, but a rebel none the less.  I don’t know what in the world made me think eating anything I want was freedom.  Is it really freedom to eat whatever you want?  For me, I’d have to say it was more like bondage.  Eating whatever I want wasn’t really freedom at all.  Eating whatever I wanted kept me fat, less able to move the way I wanted, let people make judgements about me–true or not–and hurt my self esteem.  So I ask you, was that really freedom?  I realize now I was just rebelling against the rules. 

Rule #1:  Take care of your body.  Taking care of your body doesn’t mean giving it whatever it wants.  When you give a child whatever it wants it becomes unruly and spoiled.  I’ve found my body has the same reaction.  For many years, my body has been unruly and spoiled.  I don’t think it ever made me happy to be in this condition, it was just easier.  And, I certainly wasn’t free. 

Rule #2:  Listen to your doctor.  My doctor has told me for years that I needed to lose weight, but since I am basically a healthy person, I ignored what he said.  Oh yes, I gave lip service, took meds, exercised for awhile, lost a few pounds, but I wasn’t really dedicated to making the commitment to follow rule #1.  After all I wanted my freedom.  But as the old adage goes, “Freedom isn’t free.”

Rule #3 Respect yourself:  This may be the most important rule of all.  Respecting yourself isn’t just being confident–I am.  It isn’t just doing what you please whenever you please–I did.  It’s understanding that what you do with your life is more than doing whatever you want whenever you want.  Respecting yourself means making a difference in your own life and in the lives of others.  I felt like I had the others part down.  I cared about others, prayed for those who needed it, and tried to be a good person, but when you leave out the part of respecting yourself, something just doesn’t ring true with the rest of it.

So, I’m facing the fact today that I’m a rebel.  I guess that can work to my advantage at times, but when it comes to my health, I realize it really wasn’t freedom at all.  It was rebellion.  I’m done with rebellion.  It doesn’t treat me nice.  From here on out, I’m following the rules:  Take care of your body, Listen  to your doctor, and Respect yourself.  Hey, I may as well give it try.  What’ve I got to lose?  Except maybe a few or a lot of pounds and inches.  🙂

Bad Habits for Good Habits

Well, the summer’s almost over and guess what I’ve found out?  Most of my friends have really dropped the weight this summer!  Now I’m the one who’s behind.  I just read an article about a man who lost 177 lbs in 11 months.  Here’s the link if you’re interested http://www.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/07/29/nevin.weight.loss.irprt/index.html?eref=igoogledmn_topstories.  Do you know how he did it?  Exercise and proper diet. DUH.  No hCG, no ultra-low calorie diets,  but by changing his bad habits for good habits.  I’ve lost 22lbs altogether, and of course I feel much better than I did, but now comes the uphill part where I have to change my bad habits for good ones.  It’s not about will power people.  It’s about changing your bad habits for good ones.

Anyway, seeing my friends really motivated me to get off the truck and walk to my next destination.  🙂  I bought a pedometer and I’m not going to set any step goals except that I want to do more steps every day.  I don’t care if it’s just 2 more steps than yesterday.  I want to change my bad habit of couch potato into the good habit of taking a walk after work.  The second bad habit I’m going to change into a good one is water consumption.  I bought a water bottle that holds enough water for the whole day.  I fill it about half full at night  and put it in the freezer.  Then I add water on top in the morning.  It stays cold almost all day and I just carry it with me wherever I go.

I know that I have to start small.  If I give myself too many changes at once, nothing changes at all.  They say it takes 27 days to change a habit.  We’ll see.  🙂

Time for an Update

Thanks to my friend Kim for getting me motivated again, it’s time for an update. Sugar isn’t totally out of my diet anymore (I made chocolate chip cookies yesterday) but I am much more aware of what I eat and how much of it I eat. I feel better about myself, now 22 lbs lighter, and I’m never going back to those two decades of pounds I left behind.
The great thing about all of this is how much better my clothes fit. I haven’t gone down a size which tells me I was squeezing myself into these clothes that were really too small for me. Arghhh! Well, now they fit! You really do look so much better in clothes that fit. Of course losing 22 lbs doesn’t hurt my looks too much either. I don’t think other people are noticing yet, but I think I will have to go down a size before that happens. Sadly, I think that’s about 20 lbs away judging by the weight I’ve already lost. I don’t want to squeeze my way into the next size that’s for sure!
I’m beginning to take control of my life in other ways too. I’m making a notebook for change with sections on home, spirituality, self, school and money. It makes me feel good to be moving toward something instead of growing stagnant. I’m thinking if I keep my focus on change, my focus will decrease on food. Don’t get me wrong, I still enjoy good food and love to cook (see my other blog if you have doubts http://kitchenchicks.wordpress.com) but food shouldn’t be my whole focus which is what I think it has been in the past.
To any of you still out there reading my wanderings, thank you. I’m still here.