The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

Ok, it’s been two weeks and I haven’t posted.  I’m a little off my game, but I have committed to this through the good, the bad and the ugly.  I told my husband last week that I lost weight.  Ok, it was .2 lbs, but hey, I figure it’s still going down.  He didn’t quite see it that way.  He said, “Take off your shorts, you’ll lose another .2 lbs.”  He may be right, but I’m still seeing this as part of the good.  I can zip my jeans without having to monitor the zipper all day, so that .2 lbs means something!  lol

Car and countertop?  check!  I’m doing well with this except when my husband puts his stuff on my side of the countertop or leaves his coffee cup and napkin on the car floor.  We got some talking to do.  So far, I’ve been just pushing his stuff back on his side and taking the trash out myself, but before I become Monster Wife, I better get a handle on it.

Now for the Bad.  I didn’t do my August act of kindness.  😦  I’m planning to change this by doing 2 in September, but I doesn’t change that I missed my August deadline.  I really do want to keep up with my goals and if I let them slip by, how can I say I’m committed.  Well, I AM committed and my report next week will show that.  I also haven’t done my New Testament study for the past month and I need to get back to that.  I miss it.  It’s funny how you can read the New Testament time and time again and it still speaks to you in a different way.  Lastly for the bad, I haven’t started the couch to 5k program yet.  I do walk my dog morning and night, but it’s definitely NOT a 5k.  I feel like I’ve just misstepped on these goals and will be back on track soon, but…

Now for the UGLY.  Still no painting.  Still no bags.  Still no closet work.  Still no excuses.  What more is there to say?  Not much.  Happy Goal Tending!

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A Bump in the Road and a Broken Wagon

Well, this bump in the road–let’s just call it my lack of commitment–caused me to not only fall off the wagon, but broke the wagon into pieces.  Maybe a wagon wasn’t the best choice in the first place.  The walk would’ve done me good.  I would’ve burned some calories and maybe lifted my spirit along the way too.  I think sometimes I spend way too much time soothing myself with things, that if I would just take time to reason through, I wouldn’t eat in the first place.  Like, for instance that lovely gas station muffin where I read on the label lately that one serving was 1/3 muffin.  Yes, that’s right, 1/3 muffin.  Seriously?  Who in the world eats 1/3 muffin?  I’d eat the whole doggone thing.  Oh, by the way, that 1/3 muffin serving is 230 calories.  That means the whole muffin is a whopping 690 calories.  You’ve got to be kidding me.  See how reason gets in the way of indulging yourself?  Needless to say I won’t be eating one of those again.

My other eye-opener was a Quiznos sandwich.  I love Quiznos and probably could eat one everyday for lunch if incentive was provided.  Until–yes, reason set in.  I decided to look up the nutritional quality of the sandwich.  At first I was pleasantly surprised, but then–dun dun dun–the sandwich was a whopping 1200 calories.  Again I say, “Seriously?”  Needless to say, I won’t be eating Quiznos any more.  Oh, I want to.  I just can’t.

This week I plan to rely on my reason instead of my self-indulgence.  I’m getting off the cart, picking myself up, dusting myself off, putting on my cross-trainers, and reasoning myself right into walking instead of riding my way to a better me.  I can do this.  I just have to be reasonable.  🙂

Bad Habits for Good Habits

Well, the summer’s almost over and guess what I’ve found out?  Most of my friends have really dropped the weight this summer!  Now I’m the one who’s behind.  I just read an article about a man who lost 177 lbs in 11 months.  Here’s the link if you’re interested http://www.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/07/29/nevin.weight.loss.irprt/index.html?eref=igoogledmn_topstories.  Do you know how he did it?  Exercise and proper diet. DUH.  No hCG, no ultra-low calorie diets,  but by changing his bad habits for good habits.  I’ve lost 22lbs altogether, and of course I feel much better than I did, but now comes the uphill part where I have to change my bad habits for good ones.  It’s not about will power people.  It’s about changing your bad habits for good ones.

Anyway, seeing my friends really motivated me to get off the truck and walk to my next destination.  🙂  I bought a pedometer and I’m not going to set any step goals except that I want to do more steps every day.  I don’t care if it’s just 2 more steps than yesterday.  I want to change my bad habit of couch potato into the good habit of taking a walk after work.  The second bad habit I’m going to change into a good one is water consumption.  I bought a water bottle that holds enough water for the whole day.  I fill it about half full at night  and put it in the freezer.  Then I add water on top in the morning.  It stays cold almost all day and I just carry it with me wherever I go.

I know that I have to start small.  If I give myself too many changes at once, nothing changes at all.  They say it takes 27 days to change a habit.  We’ll see.  🙂

Getting into the Act

My husband is now getting into the act.  He is swearing off sugar and challenging me to a weight loss competition.  This is scary because he is crazy competitive.  Right now I weigh less than he does and I think it is his plan to change that and soon.

I want to say that men DO lose weight faster than women, but buddy, IT IS ON!!!  It’s kinda fun having someone to work against or for or whatever.  🙂  We are getting on the scale every Monday night and marking our new weight on the calendar.  Right now we are only 4 lbs apart (He’s heavier)  I just had to say that again.  Ha! Ha!  After a month, I’ll post the differences online.  Hey!  I better get busy!

50 by 50

10 pounds are now gone and that makes me feel good.  The really great thing about this is that I feel like the weight is coming off at a healthy pace (about 1 1/2 lbs a week).  I know that eventually I’m going to have to pick up the pace with exercise to keep it coming off and so my daughter and I have decided when this challenge is over we are going to have an exercise challenge.  You can see by my stats that I am 49 years old.  I’ll be 50 in July, so she suggested this whole experiment be my 50 by 50 challenge.  Isn’t that a great idea?  I even put it on my cell phone banner to remind me.  So ten down, 40 to go.  In this no sugar challenge, I am 35 days in with 25 more to go.  By my birthday on July 30th I’m going to look like a different person!

Stability

You know, sometimes you have to learn to love stability.  When we’re first in love and our feelings are soaring, stability is far in the distance and we are in the moment.  When you are on a diet or doing a lifestyle change and the weight starts pouring off, feelings are at a peak and stability is just the smell of bread baking in the air.  At first when stability comes to our lives we shun it.  We want to be in the moment, enjoying every breath, every lost ounce, but stability is what makes life worth living.  Stability is the quiet smile of your husband as he glances over at you when you’re watching TV–reassurance of his love for you and the warm memory of that first love.  Stability is your body adjusting to your new lifestyle, feeling comfortable with the new foods you are eating and the exercise that no longer pains you in the same way as in the early days of your transformation.  We are such a people of pleasure, of highs and lows.  We must remember that it is in stability that resides peace, acceptance, and a deeper love than first love.  It is a knowing love.  Stability knows that commitment has come to dwell.  Stability allows us to make plans and follow through.  So when you think about the thrill of those first few pounds falling away, don’t forget that it is in stability that your spirit is most content.  So, reach for those stars.  Enjoy the moment, but remember to come back to stability, that knowing, committed understanding of love fulfilled.

Emotions

Did you ever notice that when emotions run high, your bad habits increase?  When I’m upset, I eat the wrong things, I swear more, I rant, I rave, I storm.  So I’ve been thinking about channeling this energy in a different way.  I can storm by walking around the block.  I can rant and rave while I punch the air or do a dance video.  I can decrease my bad habits by adding new good habits and changing my thinking.  Instead of thinking, “That upsets me, where’s the chocolate?”  I will start thinking, “That upsets me, I need to walk it off and cool down.”  Once you feel that pressure rising, use that as a sign to change your thinking.  The person I am is changing into the person I am becoming.  And, who’s in charge of that?  ME!!!  I choose to become a more positive, productive, vibrant person, because I CAN.