The Roller Coaster Dieter

You’ve heard of the yo yo dieter.  My life is so up and down that I’m more like a roller coaster dieter. I go through spurts where I feel great and I don’t even like to eat sugary, syrupy things.  Guess what?  I lose weight.  Down the roller coaster I go speeding fast and enjoying the ride, then when a difficult situation arises, that hill that seems insurmountable, my momentum keeps me going a little ways up but then slowly, trudgingly, I get stuck on the hill and slide back down to where I started (maybe that’s where the term backsliding comes from).  What I have to remember in those times is that if I let myself slide too much, I’ll get stuck in that little space between the ride down and the climb up and that’s where it gets really hard to go anywhere.

So, I’ve been thinking.  On a roller coaster, the ride up has a little help behind it.  It has that little clacker thing that attaches to the car and helps it click its way up to the top of the hill again.  I need to find my little clacker in those times.  I think it could be a lot of things, but what is the one thing that could help me get to the top again so that I can enjoy another ride down?

  • encouragement from a friend
  • reading about what others have done (inspiration)
  • taking a break and doing something I enjoy
  • picturing myself as I want to be and focusing on that  http://www.myvirtualmodel.com/en/shopping/weightloss.php
  • get off the scale for awhile and just focus on life
  • find a solution to a problem I am facing

At different times in my life, it could be any one of these things, but more important, what I require is a change of focus, a little spark to ignite that memory of all that I can be and want to be, because in the end, it has to be for me, because I want to do this, because I need to take control of my life and be in charge of who I am.  I’ve maintained the weightloss I’ve had, but it’s time to trudge up that hill and get another exciting ride downward.  Come on!  Let’s Go!

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Weight Loss

As you know, I had been getting very discouraged because I wasn’t losing anymore weight.  Well that has changed!  I’ve lost 14 lbs altogether now just by giving up sugar.  As I mentioned earlier, it has also taken away the desire to eat fast food, so that may be another added bonus to losing weight.

It’s kind of funny.  People are starting to notice my weight loss although they don’t really realize that that’s what they’re noticing.  They say things like, “I really like that shirt on you.”  or  “That color is very becoming.”  What they are really saying to me without saying it is, “I can see that you’ve lost weight.”  They don’t know this because I’m still very fat and they see me everyday.  What I’m looking forward to is coming back to work after summer is over and seeing their faces when they do notice!  Like I said, I’m making this change a permanent one in my life.  You can do this!  No fad diets, no rigorous exercise, just give up the sugar.  My daughter believed in me and I believe in you.

The Day has Arrived!

Today is the 60th and final day of my sugarless commitment.  Wow!  I can hardly believe it.  More satisfied and 10 lbs lighter, I ‘m glad I did it.  Honestly, I don’t plan to go back to my old lifestyle filled with fast food, sugar and weight gain.  Although I didn’t lose a ton, I’m satisfied to have lost some and kept it off. 

As for lent, I plan to keep to my sugarless promise, plus this whole idea of keeping up the laundry and the dishes is developing into a good habit.  I never knew I had it in me!  🙂  I’m hoping that these challenges will bring more light into my life and give me the strength to believe I can do more.  So, here’s a recap of what I’ve done:

1.  No sugar for 60 days (and now moving on through lent)

2.  Clean my kitchen nightly before I go to bed including wiping down all the counters.

3.  One load of laundry daily:  washed, dried, folded and put away.

4.  Meal plan weekly.  This one thing has saved me money and helped me to regulate what I eat.  I have fallen down a time or two, but it’s much easier to pick yourself up when you think you’re saving 300 – 400 dollars a month.  (I’m not kidding.  It really is that much savings.)

I don’t think I ‘m ready for any before and after pictures yet, but it can’t be too far away right?

A New Sacrifice

It’s too bad that it took 49 years for me to understand that being organized is not only a good thing, but essential.  I’ve always been kind of a creative person, a global thinker, a maverick.  Yes, I’ve heard all of those descriptions.  What they really mean is you’re a likeable person who is disorganized.  I have to say, I am creative, I do think globally, and I do have my own ideas about things, but none of these things have to be absent of organization.  In recent years, maybe because of my age, I’ve found it necessary to be more organized–even if I didn’t quite follow through.  Since I quit sugar, I’ve had to plan my meals and you know what I found out?  I’m saving money!  I only buy the things I need.  I almost never eat out.  Eating out costs A LOT!  And, I’m more satisfied with my meal.

Now the Lenten season has arrived and I was searching for some sacrifice in my life.  I often give up sugar, but I’ve already done that.  My husband is in the coffee business, so it wouldn’t do to give up coffee.  I like to do something for lent that sets a new pattern in my life, something that helps me to become somehow better in some way.  When I started to think about sacrifice in this way I thought, “I need to set a new pattern of organization in my life.”  I knew it had to be baby steps, so I looked up on one of those organization sites for what to start with.  Here’s what I decided.

1.  I will not go to bed until my kitchen is clean.  All dishes done, counters wiped off.

2.  I will do at least one load of laudry a day:  washed, dried, and put away.

3.  I will chip away bit by bit at the projects that are unfinished.

Not too hard right?  Well for those of you who consistently do this it might seem silly, but for me it was a challenge.  I have to tell you.  I like it!  I love when I get up in the morning and my kitchen is clean and fresh.  I love when I go to my drawers that there are clothes in them.  Usually my clean clothes are stacked on the dryer.  At the same time I’m building habits that are good for my whole family.  I’m making them stick to the rules too.

Let me encourage you.  Take baby steps.  Choose one thing.  Do it consistently.  Don’t give in to, “I’ll do it later.”  If I can change my life at 49, anyone can do it at any age.  Good luck on your journey.  Wish me luck on mine.  😀

Bone Tired

Have you ever felt tired to the bone?  That’s how I feel today.  Tired of eating all the right things.  Tired of my job (I actually love my job, but some weeks are like that.).  Tired of trying to do my best while at the same time knowing it’s not quite good enough.  I know, I know, I’m having a pity party.  It’s one of those days when you want to go home, lay on the bed and just let your mind spin away to another world.  Sometimes a good cry helps with that too, but I’m too tired for that.  It’s in these times when  you want to throw up your hands and just say, “Who really cares?  I’m going to do whatever I want to do.”  That’s what my body tells me, “Go ahead.  Do what you want to do.”  Even when I’m tired I know this is a lie.  We weren’t made to do whatever we want to do, but sometimes I give into it anyway pretending I don’t know any better.  Not today.  Today I will choose health.  I will choose what is best instead of what I want.  Not  because I have some lofty goal.  Not because something might happen to me if I don’t.  It’s because, if I really want change in my life, if I really want to be something different, what I want has to take a back seat to what is right.  Ok, so I’m tired.  So I feel defeated.  So I don’t get to do everything I want to do.  Choosing what is right is the catalyst I need for change.  But let me think about that after a nice, long nap.  ZZZZZZZZZ

Body Talk

Because you’re mine, I walk the line.  I’m talking about my body.  It’s my body and I need to walk the line so that it can stay healthy.  I’ve been letting my creature control me for too long.  It’s time to control the creature.  I’ve been talking to my body every day.  I know that sounds ridiculous, but I have.  I tell it that I know it’s feeling upset because I’m changing things but it’s ok and it should release the fat cells so that it can feel better.  I tell it that it’s not pleasure that makes you feel good but feeling good that gives you pleasure.  I tell it that everything works better when it’s in its best condition, that it may be unpleasant at first, but that in the long run everything will be more pleasurable.  I tell it to quit looking to the moment for pleasure and look to a lifetime of greater enjoyment.  I really believe this even if my creature isn’t on board yet.  When it nags me to make an immediate pleasurable choice, I remind myself that, in the long run, that immediate pleasure is short lived and can bring me a long period of heartache. 

This 60 day challenge has taught me much.  I’ve learned that I can live without all the sugar I was eating.  I’ve learned that there are more important things in life than the moment you are currently experiencing.  I’ve learned that when you take control of your body and quit listening to the creature, your self esteem goes up, your energy level increases, and your body starts to feel better too.  Why did it take 50 years for me to get to this place?  I guess I’m a late bloomer.  🙂

50 by 50

10 pounds are now gone and that makes me feel good.  The really great thing about this is that I feel like the weight is coming off at a healthy pace (about 1 1/2 lbs a week).  I know that eventually I’m going to have to pick up the pace with exercise to keep it coming off and so my daughter and I have decided when this challenge is over we are going to have an exercise challenge.  You can see by my stats that I am 49 years old.  I’ll be 50 in July, so she suggested this whole experiment be my 50 by 50 challenge.  Isn’t that a great idea?  I even put it on my cell phone banner to remind me.  So ten down, 40 to go.  In this no sugar challenge, I am 35 days in with 25 more to go.  By my birthday on July 30th I’m going to look like a different person!