50 by 50

10 pounds are now gone and that makes me feel good.  The really great thing about this is that I feel like the weight is coming off at a healthy pace (about 1 1/2 lbs a week).  I know that eventually I’m going to have to pick up the pace with exercise to keep it coming off and so my daughter and I have decided when this challenge is over we are going to have an exercise challenge.  You can see by my stats that I am 49 years old.  I’ll be 50 in July, so she suggested this whole experiment be my 50 by 50 challenge.  Isn’t that a great idea?  I even put it on my cell phone banner to remind me.  So ten down, 40 to go.  In this no sugar challenge, I am 35 days in with 25 more to go.  By my birthday on July 30th I’m going to look like a different person!

Stability

You know, sometimes you have to learn to love stability.  When we’re first in love and our feelings are soaring, stability is far in the distance and we are in the moment.  When you are on a diet or doing a lifestyle change and the weight starts pouring off, feelings are at a peak and stability is just the smell of bread baking in the air.  At first when stability comes to our lives we shun it.  We want to be in the moment, enjoying every breath, every lost ounce, but stability is what makes life worth living.  Stability is the quiet smile of your husband as he glances over at you when you’re watching TV–reassurance of his love for you and the warm memory of that first love.  Stability is your body adjusting to your new lifestyle, feeling comfortable with the new foods you are eating and the exercise that no longer pains you in the same way as in the early days of your transformation.  We are such a people of pleasure, of highs and lows.  We must remember that it is in stability that resides peace, acceptance, and a deeper love than first love.  It is a knowing love.  Stability knows that commitment has come to dwell.  Stability allows us to make plans and follow through.  So when you think about the thrill of those first few pounds falling away, don’t forget that it is in stability that your spirit is most content.  So, reach for those stars.  Enjoy the moment, but remember to come back to stability, that knowing, committed understanding of love fulfilled.

Weigh too Much

I’m sure when I get on the scale this week I’m going to weigh too much.  I don’t know what happened to me.  I felt like a giant vacuum cleaner sucking in everything that came in my path.  No, I didn’t eat any sugar, but I just couldn’t seem to satisfy the desire to eat.  I had an orange for breakfast–delicious, an orange for snack, 2, ok I shouldn’t have eaten 2 corn dogs for lunch, but there you have it, some broccoli with cheese, a few grapes and a humongous diet limeade for lunch.  For supper I made a cheeseburger casserole and ate 2 big pieces.  That rotten number 2.  I gotta get rid of that.  Oh, but before that I ate several, I don’t even want to say how many, peanut butter crackers.  What makes me do this to myself?  Technically, I haven’t broken the 60 day challenge, but really, did I need all those crackers? 

Tomorrow is the 3oth day of the challenge.  30 days.  I can hardly believe it.  I made it a whole 30 days without sugar.  9 lbs are gone.  I have more energy and I feel great.

So, this week when I step on the scale, will I weigh too much?

Emotions

Did you ever notice that when emotions run high, your bad habits increase?  When I’m upset, I eat the wrong things, I swear more, I rant, I rave, I storm.  So I’ve been thinking about channeling this energy in a different way.  I can storm by walking around the block.  I can rant and rave while I punch the air or do a dance video.  I can decrease my bad habits by adding new good habits and changing my thinking.  Instead of thinking, “That upsets me, where’s the chocolate?”  I will start thinking, “That upsets me, I need to walk it off and cool down.”  Once you feel that pressure rising, use that as a sign to change your thinking.  The person I am is changing into the person I am becoming.  And, who’s in charge of that?  ME!!!  I choose to become a more positive, productive, vibrant person, because I CAN.

Water Water Everywhere

Water water everywhere and not a drop I’m drinking.  I know I need to drink more water.  I know I’m supposed to drink 8 glasses a day.  But, I know that I don’t do it, partly because I don’t want to count every glass of water I drink, and partly because I’m focused on other things.  I want to make water my focus in the next week to see if it makes a difference in my weight.  I’m going to weigh myself on Saturday to see if I’ve lost any weight this week, and then I’ll weigh myself again next Saturday to see if I lost more weight than the week previous.  I’m going to make a checklist so that I can document my water to be sure I drink exactly 8 glasses a day.  That’s probably double what I currently drink.  Check back with me next week to see whether this little experiment works.  🙂

Habits

Today as I was eating at my favorite salad restaurant, I felt a little sad.  When I go to a restaurant, I always have my favorite thing on their menu and restaurants that I visit often I have a habit of ordering the same thing every time I go.  Back to the salad place.  At this salad place I always have strawberry shortcake for dessert.  I like it a lot because it has chunks of pound cake and then you scoop strawberry sauce over the top and on top of the strawberry sauce is whipped cream.  I looked at the dessert bar with sadness because I knew, even though it is my habit to have that treat, that today I wasn’t going to have it.  Habits are hard to break and a certain sadness comes when you have to break them.  So I thought to myself that I had to form a new habit, a new lifestyle takes sacrifice and change and today was one small sacrifice to a better life for myself.  I perused the fruit bar and saw some wonderfully juicy orange slices and put 4 or 5 on my plate in place of the strawberry shortcake.  You know, I think I enjoyed them even better knowing that I’m now making better choices for my life, but they were delicious anyway.  It’s been 21 days and 7lbs are now gone, all because I gave up sugar.  I haven’t exercised any more than I ever did.  All I’ve done is altered my sugar intake.  I’m sure exercise is somewhere in my future, but why rush things?  🙂

20 Days and Counting

It’s been 20 days without sugar and I have to say I feel a lot better.  The only thing I would say is that I have to remember to eat regularly.  It is in those times when I get hungry that sugar’s temptation raises its ugly head.  I satisfy this tempation with fruit and I’m back on track again.  Truthfully, I’m not missing sugar all that much.  In fact, a wonderful parent brought in 3 boxes full of cookies and brownies for the teachers and I wasn’t even tempted, much to my surprise.  (Normally I would’ve eaten 5 or 6 I’m sad to say.)  Still no actual weight loss, so I’m going to have to evaluate what I’ve increased in my diet.  Oh, and well, exercise of course.  🙂